Laundry Laundry and more Laundry

So finally going through and unpacking and putting away the boxes of clothes that I haven't touched since we moved in except to go through pile some on the dresser ad just dig through to find what I was looking for. So rewashing everything and going through it to get rid of what ever we no longer wear or like or that doesn't fit. Already got half a garbage bag on the go for stuff that's ready to be donated and another pile going of stuff that is worn out. Getting everything organized one room at a time not sure why I picked our bedroom to start but that's where I started not sure which room will be next but this week is dedicated to the bedroom and it will be done its already half done.

Not myself

I haven't been myself lately. I feel like a stranger in my own body. My thoughts are all scattered I don't have an attention span. Anxiety is at its highest. When my anxiety gets like his my ADD goes out of control. I just want to curl up in a dark hole until this all calms itself down. The doctor thinks medication is the way to go I hate taking meds. I just don't feel in control of my life at the moment. My Dh is out of a job I am on stress leave we might not have a home for long if this keeps up. What to do where to turn everything is so frazzled. The hole in my heart is growing bigger every day starting to wonder if it will ever be whole again.
I don't feel grounded yet spritually I am growing more and more each day. Embracing my pagan life style more and more becoming more involved in the community. Yet I am a floundering fish on the beach struggling to breath because I can't find my center. UGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG