Pictures of Eryn and Ryan my neice and nefew

Happy Birthday Baby Eryn

Well baby Eryn has arrived. Welcome to the world, mom and baby are both doing well. Auntie here on the other end isn't sure how she is going to handle this going to see them this afternoon

Fooled again

Ok so af never really did show her face just three days of spotting and never anything more than that. Joy oh joy.
I am sitting here at this early hour because my friend has left for the hospital to have her second baby. Ryan (her first) is sleeping upstairs. I am honestly not sure how I should feel with all of this. I have pretty much been on auto pilot the last few weeks and not letting my feelings come out. Now today all I want to do is cry, abd ask myself why its not me.

cramps suck

Ok so AF is attempting to make an appearance and she is kicking my ass. The craqmps and headache and backache can all bite me. I just wish she would hurry up and show her face fully instead of doing the teasing game, oh let's spot for an hour or so completly stop the start the You know the usual life of an irregular af.

Feeling slightly better

I went for my physical with my family doc yesterday. I told her about the things the RE said to me and the tone he used and what not. She told me that in her eyes I am healthy and not to attempt any fad diets so I will listen to her. She is also going ot send me to an ortho for my knee and someone else to remove the mole that has been bugging me for the longest time now. So life is good. Well except for the fact that I ended up with a mild case of heat stroke yesterday and was up half the night vomiting and not being able to get comfortable. Oh well such is life. I really hope we can get caught up on everything now that DH's EI is finally coming in and we can get an ac some time soon

Well no more clomid but slightly dissapointed

Well we had our first appointment with our new RE today, and first off I was slightly dissapointed to learn that the earliest we might be starting treatments is in October. I was told that I am Metormin resistant, oh me oh my what else is knew my body fails to work the way it should yet again. I have a script for Avandia which he hopes will work better. Let me just say that even though my new RE is the best in the area he is not SIZE FREINDLY. I am so tired of being stereo typed. I do not sit on the couch all day stuffing my face until I couldn't possibly eat any more. I am not lazy, we do not own a car so I walk or take the bus where ever I have to go. Basically we are not starting treatments because according to him I am not healthy because of my weight. Now my weight has been steady for over the last year I have gone up and down a couple of pounds either way but have stayed at ruffly this weight for a year so excuse me I am sorry if the fact that gee now I knwo hte metformin was not working for me at all, so I have spent the last two years with GI upset for nothing.
When we do finalkly start treatments it is goin g to be timed intercourse with femera first, then IUI with gonal F and then if that doesn't work ovarian drilling. No mention of IVF at this point. I know I am in good hands but WTF. I go back in september and go from there I guess.
Oh and a side effect of Avandia Ovarian stimulation, could I be so lucky???

Time goes by so quickly

Tomorrow is our first appointment with the new RE. We are both excited and apprehensive at the same time. Wondering what this doctor will be able to do for us, how our blood work and my DH's SA went. I do know from reading the info on my RE's protocols on his web site that I am in good hands. All IUI's are done with triggers and careful monitoring, his fee for the sperm wash is only $160 that is the cheapest I have seen any where in all my research so to me that is a blessing. I can't wait in a way to get the treatments started although that probably won't be for a little bit, I am sure he will probably will have more tests to run before we actually get started.
I also can't believe that baby Eyrn will be here next monday wow, where as the time gone. My DH and I will be babysitting Ryan while my friend is in the hospital I've taken a couple days off work and for the rest of the week been given shorter shifts so that way I am not putting it all on my DH to look after the active 20 month old.
I still don't know how I am going to feel when I meet baby Eryn I am going ot just see how thing go, I am anxious about that because I don't want to seem to hurt or downplay my friend's joy in the expansion of her family.
The things we infertiles do for our friends and family.

Only one week left

Until our appointment with the new RE I can't wait. I went with my friend to her 38 week appointment yesterday, so technically I got to meet my new RE then. Sitting in the room with her waiting for the doctor I am looking around and the first thing I see is a portable dildo cam lol yes defiantly going to be getting some monitoring there.
As for everything else I am still enjoying work, just slightly stressed that the summer bus schedule is going to give me some issues and limited availability. Thankfully it will mainly be on the weekends but there is not much I can do about it, its not my fault they cut a few buses off the route in the summer.

A few pictures to start with form the old camera

Ok these are from the old camera that I managed to get uploaded onto the computer tomorrow I will post the rest of the house pictures form the new camera.
Upstairs bathroom (the only bathroom I have attempted to decorate so far)



Spare bedroom


Office


Kittens we rescued the day before we moved
Lexi and Abby

Them with my Adult Female Zoe who has decided to play moma to them

New Camera

Ok since we could not locate our usb cord any where and the camera we were usuing was only a 2.8 mega pixel we got a new camera today a 10.2 wow big differance i havne't taken it out of its package yet but by monday mornign at the latest i iwll have picture up for everyone

The up coming birth of my neice

Is in 27 days, yes unfortunately we know the exact date because my friend has a blood clotting disorder and is having a scheduled c section. I am loving spending the time with my nephew, yeah ok they aren't related by blood but who really cares about little details like that, he is also 19 months old and not an infant so I am sorta ok with it. However when Eryn arrives at the end of the month, I am not sure I am going ot be able to handle it. I live two doors away I am expected to help take care of Ryan while my friend is healing, but that also means spending a lot of time over at her place with Eryn as well. Since this long road of our journey really started to get long I have avoided at all costs infants once they hit the toddler stage I seem to be ok.
I guess my only saving grace is going ot be that I am seeing my new RE a week before Eryn arrives. Coincidently my RE is also my friend's high risk OB.

It other news my furnature is arriving today I so can't wait. I am also loving my new job. I am really starting to wonder if it was my old job that was makign me so tired and sore all the time or the fact that our old apartment was infested with mold which we found more of as we were loading up the truck and packing boxes. Since we moved I have felt a lot better I don't have the constant headaches any more, yeah I still get headaches but not liek I was so maybe there is a lot to the fact that my old apartment was making me ill. Which could have been a strike against us in our quest.