So apprently

Because I am not over at her heineses every waking minute of every day and spending time with her week and a half old daughter I am suffering from major depression. She thinks I need to call the crisis line and talk to someone because I have shed some tears and have had a hard time being around Eryn. Ummm ok isn't it only natural after wanting a child of our own to be hard to be around other people's children? Like in all honesty Robin and I have our own lives that we need to live we still have boxes to finish unpaking. I work quite a few hours every week have like a 2.5 to 3 hour commute on the bus to and from work so mayb e I just want some quiet time with my husband.
I can honestly say that I had once thought about possibly asking her to stand as a god parent for our children and after seeing the way she raises her children I am not going that route. Just because she is blind doesn't give her the excuses to do and say the thin gs she dose. There is no reason why her 20 month old doesn't know how to use a spoon, and how do you ask do I know this if I am indeed childless well I was a Nanny for an 18 month old until he was just over 3 and that child was a little behind developmentally and he was using a spoon for all his meals and not throwing his food all over the place just because he didn't want to sit in his chair and eat. There is more but I am not going to go into that. Too much anger and resentment starting to build up in side that might blow one day if she continues to push me the way she has been. We may have been friends for ten years but come off it enough is enough already.